Friday, March 29, 2013

A woman and a chicken walked in to a church...



A large part of my job here in Haiti is encouraging people to tell and sitting and listening to their stories. And I have to share, it is one of my favorite parts! 

We sit around at the end of week during mealtimes and during the week “debrief” to allow the teams to share with us the good, the bad, and the ‘snapshots’ of the week that they are taking home. The stories are all so special: funny, heart-breaking, hopeful, encouraging, challenging, poignant, awe-filled, and unique. Many times, I have to fight tears (or sometimes let them flow!) as I hear some of the relationships and experiences the teams have encountered. And 100% of the time, thier stories bring me to my knees in prayer for the people of Haiti and for the teams to continue to tell their stories and bring more people to live new stories. 

Many of those stories that are being shared have actually brought dead faith to life...each person’s own personal little Easter.

Last week, the story that keeps bubbling in my heart is a story I heard from a construction team called to serve in Source a Philippe, a small village on the island of La Gonave. 

La Gonave is a large island separated from the main island and only connected by hours on a boat. Everything on the island is brought in: food, drinks, materials, vehicles, etc. Pastor Jacki, the Circuit Superintendent called to serve in La Gonave, is actually from the island.  He will quickly tell you that he believes that he is who he is today because of the impact of mission teams who have come to serve the people of Haiti and of La Gonave. So many people who have come to live, and then share, the stories of great need and great hope.

The village of Source a Philippe is poverty-laden, inhabited by only several hundred people. Most of the homes are built with mud and sticks, roofs of coconut tree branches or, sometimes, old, rusty, tin. The people of Source a Philippe live in some of the worst conditions I have seen in Haiti, little access to water, food, clothing, and shelter. The most basic needs barely met. Pastor Jacki refers to the island and the villages on it as “the forgotten places.”

Our mission team from Virginia chose La Gonave because the team leader, Jack Martin and his wife Marianne, have served in Haiti for over 30 years and knew the needs of the island. They worked on the roof of the medical clinic, "Klinic Komunite", which is being brought back to life since it was damaged by the earthquake. A blessing in the midst of disaster. 

Over the past three months, since my arrival in Haiti, that resurrected clinic- with the aid of mission teams, has seen over 1200 patients, many walking more than 3 hours to be seen by a doctor or nurse. 

Source a Philippe’s own little Easter. 

The Virginia team arrived on a Tuesday and attended worship the following Sunday morning. The local preacher asked the team to sit in the front of the church behind the pulpit, where the choir would normally sit. Shortly after worship began, Jack noticed a tall, elderly, regal-looking woman who entered the back of the church and quietly looked for a seat. Tucked under her arm was a rooster. The team looked at each other in confusion, not knowing why someone would bring a chicken with them to church.

A friend of the woman moved over and made space for her to sit. The regal-looking woman stopped to tie the rooster to the pew and quickly sat down. Marianne remarked during the telling of the story, “that was the most well-behaved rooster I had ever seen! He was quiet the entire service.” 

It came to the time that the ushers began to walk around with the offering baskets, passing them around and allowing the congregation to worship by giving to God. The tall, elderly, regal-looking woman quietly leaned over, untied the rooster, and began walking up towards the altar. She bent down, tied the chicken to the altar and stood up. She grabbed the local preachers arm, asking him to bend down so she could tell him something.

“This is all that I have.”

Jack Martin wept while sharing this story. I weep now writing it. 

Thank you, God for the story very similar to this one that we celebrate today. You loved us so much that you gave your Son as an offering for our sins. And then gave us the gift of eternal life through Jesus' resurrection....the world's own little Easter. Which we get to be reminded on not only yearly, or every Sunday, but every day. We just have to open our eyes and ears to the stories in our own lives and in the lives of others.


Thanks be to God. 

Friday, March 15, 2013

Holding hands, piggyback rides, and dragging me down the road.




Bon jou!

My last post shook many of my friends, family, and students up-- so many are not accustomed to hearing stories of my struggles, doubt, and hurt. I tend to deal with all of that very privately and quietly,  meanwhile, encouraging so many to share so that I can support and walk with them on the road they are on. I think that my being alone here in Haiti revealed just how badly I needed to share...so other can support and walk with me. I think being here in Haiti continues to reveal just how many people really are walking beside me, behind me, and before me...holding hands, piggyback rides, and dragging me down the road...

One of my students sent me the most wonderful and encouraging Facebook message- it is one of those messages that can keep you fueled in ministry for at least a year! No matter what is thrown at you!! :) I replied to her message with this...

I was scared to death to write what I did...but God was pushing me to do it. Now I know why. 
I think it was for you, not only for you...but maybe it is time more people hear more about what my daily faith walk is like. 
My faith is strong....but it is a difficult journey. Has been and will continue to be. It is every day, every hour, every moment. 
You know, I am always the positive optimistic voice amd I just felt I needed to share what is really going on in my heart right now. Thank you for understanding that and hearing what I am saying...and feeling parts of it too. 
I hurt. At times- miserable...but in ALL of that I KNOW God is in control, amd trust that!! But I still hurt, and just felt that it was time for me to "vocalize" that to everyone. I often worry about what people will think, shape their thoughts of me, etc. I gave up worrying for Lent....so I am just taking this opportunity to just SHARE!
It is scary, and I almost didn't post it, but something spurred me on to do it. And your message really confirmed that for me. Thank YOU for sharing.
I am really excited about being a part of your faith walk, walking beside you. That is what I do- and it is my favorite part. The being away from that everyday is probably the hardest for me right now. I miss you, and all of my 'babies' so much. Leaving MY seniors was almost as hard as leaving Scott. Okay....it was harder! :) I love you! LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU! 
Thanks for your love and support. It really means the world to me!!! More than you know.
And it does. 

The other day I read this during my morning devotional time:  "In solitude we can come to the realization that we are not driven together but brought  together. In solitude we come to know our fellow human beings not as partners who can satisfy our deepest needs, but as brothers and sisters with whom we are called to give visibility to God's all-embracing love. In solitude we discover that community is not a common ideology, but a response to a common call. In solitude we indeed realize that community is not made but given."  -Henri Nouwen

Solitude is difficult, and painful, and foreign... but it is where God can best intervene, still us, and reveal His will for our lives. It is in solitude that Daniel was able to be rescued from the lions, that Moses was able to seek the face of God, and Samuel was able to hear God's call on his life. 

I still continue to struggle in moments of my days here in Haiti, but I am striving to breathe deep in those moments and continue to trust in "the slow work of God." I know this road will not get any easier, but I will focus more on those I am here to serve, those I am brought together with, and those in the community of believers who love me, pray for me, and walk with me. Those of you who are holding my hands, giving me piggyback rides, or are dragging me down this road. 

Thanks for your love and support. It really means the world to me. More than you know. 

I thank my God every time I remember you. In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now. -Philippians 1:3-5